FML

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Allocated Modules
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Module Code: PL4208
Module Title: Introduction to Counselling Psychology
Bid ID: B00004150611
Your Bid: 989
Winning Bid: 989


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Modules Not Successfully Allocated
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Module Code: PL4880F
Module Title: Addictive Behaviours
Reason: Outbidded
Bid ID: B00004150674
Your Bid: 443
Winning Bid: 573


Module Code: PL4219
Module Title: Advanced Abnormal Psychology
Reason: Outbidded
Bid ID: B00004125558
Your Bid: 153
Winning Bid: 666


Module Code: PL4218
Module Title: Psychological Assessment
Reason: Outbidded
Bid ID: B00004150697
Your Bid: 178
Winning Bid: 227


Module Code: PL4207
Module Title: Social Psychology: Theories and Methods
Reason: Outbidded
Bid ID: B00004150644
Your Bid: 563
Winning Bid: 600

FML X 1000 I HAVE TO SETTLE FOR SHIT MODULES!
Fuck I went to look the modules offered for 1b I seriously want to faint. Cause all that is left is cognitive
cognitive cognitive neuro neuro neuro fuck I think I'm going to die next sem.

The mods left are PL4201 Psychometrics and Psychological Testing (9), PL4203 Cognition (22), PL4206 Cognitive Neuroscience (27), PL4213 Cognitive Neuropsychology (2), PL4221 Early Language Development (2), PL4222 Neuroscience of Memory (28)

I have underestimated the power of close bidding. Fuck!

FUCK and muihong just reminded me. I PAID FOR THIS SHIT.

I feel like shit. I overwhelm with so much different feelings. I'm angry, angry at myself for making the wrong decisions when bidding (I'm thinking now I should have mixed popular and non-popular modules), angry at the school for coming out with shit system, angry at the school because they know they demand yet they don't give the supply. I'm sad because I only got one module module during bidding, sad I didn't get the modules I like, sad that I have to settle for modules I have 0 interest or do not like. I'm worried because I don't know how I'm going to cope next sememster with no friends and all this shit mods that I don't like. 我很无奈because I don't know what I can do. There's no more vacancies for round 1b and future rounds and I don't think appeal will work because likelihood they will just say no more vacancies for that module and ask you to settle for what there is. I know that 99.9999999% I'll be stuck with shit modules and I cannot change that and now with what I have left, I feel like I don't have a choice. :'(

Bidding

Why they so cute one!

I'm super stress over bidding.
Introduction to Counselling psychology was 857 before close bidding. Simi sai is this. All the modules I'm bidding for all exceed the number of vacancies already. Seriously this system sucks, deprieve people of taking the modules they like. Why can't they just make it lecture style.
Then there's next sem bidding to worry about since I'm spending so much points this sem, and it's likely next sem's interesting modules will be damn freaking expensive too.

I think I'm addicted to reading. I finished ghost girl on friday, and I finished Living with Evil yesterday, started reading Hidden together and I've finished reading! I think I broke record, first time finishing a book in one day.

I think I'll go ahead and register for TOPIK and try to get myelf as ready as I can for the test. So I will try to write a short passage on any topic once a week. Hmm, but no one to mark for me, but I guess it's good practice. Maybe also form sentences with grammar I have learnt or just learnt.

The thought of school starting in 2 weeks makes me really sad. :(

Just a short update here cause I don't really know what to blog about

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Ghost Girl

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I finished reading Ghost Girl by Torey Hayden. Great book! It's a pity they didn't managed to find and prosecute the real culprit/s who is/are behind Jade (Judie) abuse due to lack of evidence. Also, it wasn't sure if the stories that she told were real. It can be due to psychological explanation and that the things she experienced like the fear of spiders, carve on her sister's (amber) stomach, the existence of the people she mentioned like Tashee and characters of 'Dallas' (but do this do not rule out the possibility of she being genuinely abused. Or there is the existence of ritual child abuse or for pedophilic purposes, most likely to make pornographic films.

How do you differentiate being naive and giving others the benefit of doubt and trusting them. If you choose to believe them, what if they choose and lie to you and you're the one who get hurt in the other. If you don't, what if their stories are real and because you chose not to help them and they got hurt. 

Why the world appear to be such a complicated place. Why are humans equipped to be so scary at times. Why are humans equipped with the emotions to sometimes feel so bad.

不顺

Rahh! Damn sian! First, you know my job, that job which doesn't seem like a job and make me earn so little money and have so much time that I feel guilty, the prof cut the working days again because she said the cases are down to a trickle. Damn sian, already ending next week already still cut cut cut. Haha I'm just thinking, MY MONEY!!! Plus the thought that I didn't earn money this holiday makes me sad but if I work then I can't enjoy the last 3 mths holiday also. Everything I do, I feel so conflicting. Then f the school, they didn't give me any modules during mpe which means that I have to bid for all 4 modules. Damn it! Hate the school! Additional stress, I don't want to end up with all the shit modules that nobody wants.

Met Karen today for steamboat, blog on that when I get pictures. Went to Sengkang Library to borrow books after that. Borrowed Wednesday's Child and The Boy in the Cupboard by Shane Dunphy and Living with Evil by Cynthia Owen. I specially went to borrow Shane Dunphy's books and happened to see the book Living with Evil so I borrwed that too. Hope it's nice.

My corrected Korean homework. Can you believe I took like 2 days to write this. I translated it to English because I was worried the teacher cannot understand what I say.

내가 생각하는 20세기 최고 발명품은 인터넷이다. 인터넷은 내 하루 생할에서 없으면 안 되는 물건이기 때문이다. 인터넷는 기능이 많다. 인터넷은 이메일, 게임, 채팅, 정보를 할 수 있다.

공부할 때 인터넷이 필요하다.나는 공부할 때 인터넷이 있으니까 도서관에 항상 갈 필요가 없다. (When I do homework, with Internet I don’t need to always go to the library.) 인터넷이 있기 전에는 다른 나라 친구에게 전화를 거는 것이 너무 비쌌다.그렇지만 지금은 인터넷이 있으니까 채팅이 무료다. (Before the existence of internet, calling friends overseas is very expensive. However with internet now, chatting is free.) 그래서 돈과 시간이 많이 절약된다.(So we save a lot of time and money)심심할 때 인터넷 하면서 시간을 보낼 수도 있다.

그런데 인터넷이 있어서 좋지 않은 점도 있다.나는 인터넷을 하면서 많은 시간을 보내니까 늦게 자고 눈이 피곤하다. (I sleep late and have tired eyes because I spend a lot of time on the internet.)나는 인터넷 할 때 집에서 나가고 싶지 않다. (When I use the internet, I don’t want to go out of the house)그래서 건강에 나쁘다. (Hence, it is bad for health.)

L'hotel Causeway Bay Habour View

I feel so dumb. I kept thinking Cheng San library is National Library but while I was looking for books today, I click on Cheng San library and realised it's actually the library at Hougang Mall. The book 'Hidden' is actually from there, I could have went there to borrow and save my $1.55. Haha okay, so I reserved another book, Cut by Cathy Glass, today. I started reading Ghost Girl yesterday and I'm more than half done with the book, I need more books! I'm like addicted to reading books nowadays, becoming a nerd.

In May I went to HK with my family and we stayed at L'hotel Causeway Bay Habour View. Chose to stay there cause it's near my uncle's house.

The hotel is located just beside 天后 mtr station. Super convenient. My father and I even walked to causeway bay. They also allow you to check-in early (I think) because we arrived before 2pm but they still gave us 1 room because I think the other room is not ready. At least we had a place to dump our stuff before going to my uncle's house. After checking out, they even help to look after your luggages so you can still go out and do your stuff without having to bring your luggages with you.

The room is quite huge as compared to the previous one I stayed at. Of course it's more expensive also, but I'm not sure how much does it cost cause not I pay one. =X

Bathtub!

Actually why people like to soak in bathtub? I tried and it made me giddy.

The only bad thing about the hotel is that they don't have wifi in the rooms. I don't understand why a freaking 4 stars hotel have no free wifi in the room. They have wifi in the lobby though, just need to ask the counter for the password.

They have a super small swimming pool, which looks like it can only accomodate one person, a gym, which my brother said is small too, and a sauna. I wanted to try the sauna but at first I couldn't locate the sauna when I went up. It's actually in the toilet! I found it on my last day morning, wanted to try it but I have no idea how to use it.

My brother managed to get free wifi around hong kong. Not sure how he did it, but you need to have data romaing which I didn't have. I managed to find one that provide 20/30 mins, can't remember, of free wifi but only at certain locations, like starbucks.

Oh yeah, I'm an auntie now! :O
My nephew was born on 10 July! Damn handsome boy! I should go back to hongkong when he's older and can play with me and do some auntie-nephew bonding.

Aiming to get my Korean homework done today. Or latest by tomorrow! 화이팅!

More Books

I'm researching on hotels in taiwan. I have a question. Why is ximending mrt station not called ximending station but called ximen station.

Started reading the book The Girl in the Mirror by Cathy glass which I borrowed from Sembawang library on Monday. It is a novel inspired by a true story and guess what? I read the first few lines of the Prologue and realise I read this book before, but I can't remember when. Luckily I didn't reserve this book if not waste my money cause I was thinking of reserving all of Cathy glass books, except the newest self-help guide, Happy Kids: The secret to raising well-behaved, contented children. Woah, I went to Cathy Glass website to search for the title of this book which is the newest book displayed on NLB catalogue and it was written in 2010 so I thought she stopped writing. Guess what I saw on her website, she has been writing just that NLB is slow in bringing/did not bring in the books.

True Fostering Stories:
The Night the Angels Came
A Baby's Cry
I Miss Mummy
Another Forgotten Child (Sept 2012)

Novels based on true stories:
My Dad's a Policeman
Run, Mummy, Run

The books I will be interested but never knew existed until today.
Found a cheap website to buy books (got the link from Cathy Glass's homepage) : The Book Despository. The books seem cheaper (at least for Cathy Glass's books) than Singapore's bookstores. One cathy glass book cost $13.73 or less (excluding self-help guides). I think in Singapore they will cost at least $18++? They also include free worldwide delivery!!!

She also has another 2 self help guides, Happy Adults: The secret to lasting Happiness and Contentment and Happy Mealtimes for Kids (Sept 2012).

I shall started reading The Ghost Girl, which I borrowed from Serangoon Library together with 3,096 Days, by Torey Hayden tomorrow. Then I have one more book Hidden which is with Carissa now. Sounds like a good time to get more books!

Tuesday's work went relatively well, we had to collect saliva samples 4 times and not 3, I remembered wrongly. I still think the job is very not worth it cause back and fro sembawang is really longer than my one hour of work there.

Finished reading 3096 Days, borrowed it from Serangoon library last tuesday after going back to NUS for huiting and zhihui commencement. Took kind of long to read it, I think it cannot capture my attention as well I don't know why. The story is about Natascha Kampusch who was kidnapped by Wolfgang Priklopil on 2 March 1998 when she was 10 years old and her life while she was kept a prisoner for 3096 days. It shows a different insight on the relationship between her and the abductor. How there is no clear cut black and white and surprisingly how the abductor treated her. Although he abused her, made her work, starved her and all, it's actually kind of sad to see how he wanted to have a normal life with her that sadly was not possible. How he bought things for her, celebrated festivals/birthdays with her and bringing her for ski trip. Reading the book, I can really feel his fear of her escaping.

Dinner today is KFC family feast. It has been a long time since I last ate KFC. Had the family feast meal. Tried the new hot devil drumlets. I like the spicy lime ones, tasted more spicy and the lime taste compliment the spicy taste well! But my dasao say the drumlet skin feels like it's all msg powder.

Just now during Korean lesson the teacher say to tell her if we want to take topik test in oct then she'll bring the form next week. Although I have second thoughts but I still want to take the test. However just now cause I too shy to talk to the teacher so I didn't tell her. Maybe I'll ask her when I email her the homework. Homework topic: The best invention of the 20th century.

Research Assistant

Went to C Primary School today. I honestly think it's a waste of my time because the time I took to travel there is longer than the time I actually collect the data needed. Plus when I went it was raining so heavily and I still had to walked to the school and I didn't bring my umbrella. Totally regretted signing up for it.

First time collecting data face-to-face. I wasn't nervous at first but when I started reading the instructions to the kid, I became very nervous and my voice started trembling. Lol, I think I was more nervous then the kid. I think I look super lost. The thing now is, I'm worried during the recording, I recorded the subject number wrongly. The subject number was _3 and I scared I said _2 during recording. I feel like I'm back in those exam times when I become paranoid over my answers. I recorded the name though, I hope I didn't do it wrongly and if I did it doesn't matter. I guess I'll never know if I recorded wrongly unless the full-time RA scold me (which I definitely hope do not happen!). It's a bit like University exams where I will not know my score and where I've gone wrong. Usually I'll keep thinking about the questions until my results come and after awhile I'll stop thinking about it. Have to teach myself to let go and forget, don't keep thinking about things you can't change, cause I seriously think that will result in me becoming psychotic. I already suspect that I'm leaning towards OCD. 

On the train back, I was checking my email and I saw the confirmation email for another session tomorrow. Super last minute! Super worried. Cause tomorrow's session is worse, have to collect saliva samples, not once, not twice but 3 times from the kid to measure their cortisol level. I seriously think the way they collect saliva is quite ridiculous and if I'm the kid, I'll be damn traumatise cause I'll be so embarrassed.

Health Diary

Blogger seriously has some big problems. I was trying to upload the photos and it is upright when I view the photo from my computer but some how when I upload it onto blogger the photo became on the wrong side.

Googled and found the solution to my problem from here.
Upload the photo onto blogger -> Go to pisca web album (I didn't even know this thing existed automatically) -> Edit in creative kit -> if the photos appear upright, just crop the photo and save it again. TADAA PROBLEM SOLVED!

Received this from Samantha last Christmas. I only saw the back of the scheduler and always thought this was a notebook. Until some time ago, I decided to open the bag and realised it's a scheduler! I already have one though, and it will be such a waste not to use this and I can't use it anymore in 2013. Plus it's so cute! It also seems quite weird to me if I suddenly change my scheduler half way through.

So, I've decided to use this as a health diary. I wanted to start doing it today(16/7) but my da yi ma is here, so I've decided to postpone it till my da yi ma ends. So EAT ALL THE FOOD before that!

I'll record things like

1) What did I eat?

2) What exercise I did?

3) How much water did I drink?

4) Did I shit?

5) My weight ocassionally.

Hopefully, this will help in my weight loss process. I seriously want to lose weight and I seriously envy skinny people. Whether it helps anot, I don't think so because I have been recording my spendings for quite some time in order to control my spendings. Then I realised, usually I just record down my spending but I don't even do anything about them. I don't even both to tabulate how much I spend in total every month. I just record for the sake of recording which is bad! Maybe I should start tabulating how much I spend every month/ week and start to better control my spendings.

Let's try though! 화이팅!!!

Shoessss

I'm so worried about my deteriorating brain. I'm so worried one day I can't do Maths anymore.  I'm so worried one day I can't learn anything else or I become super slow in learning. Shit man, I'm really worried about becoming stupider than I already am. Wtf.  Super upset now, 4 more weeks till school starts. Really not looking forward to year 4.

Went to collect my reserved book from Bedok library today. I reserved the book Hidden by Cathy Glass. There's only 3 libraries that have that book. Ang Mo Kio, Bukit Batok and Cheng San library. It cost $1.55 to reserve a book and you can collect it from any library. Very worth it! Much cheaper than buying the book and if the location is far, $1.55 may be cheaper than the transport cost. Happy!

Last friday, not yesterday- the previous friday, went to buy shoes for my brother's wedding with Zhi Hui. Super last minute, bought the shoes the day before the wedding. First went to dmk atrium sale at compasspoint. The shoes there were really cheap! Sad thing is, most of the shoes there's no more sizes already. Unless you have a super small feet or super big feet. Zhi hui is size 35!!! Such small feet! Bought a pair of flats from there at only 9.90. Then went to NEX and got the shoes for my brother's wedding from Mondo. Really love the pair of heels, I think it really look very nice.

Then Sunday when I went to Compasspoint with my father to meet my brother and da sao for lunch, he bought the pair of sandals for me at the sale too. I realised that sandals is bad, cause the silver things on the shoes will make sounds when you walk so the whole world will know that you're coming.

Monday when I met Carissa, saw the nice pink flats at Cotton On going for 10 bucks so I bought it too.

So I got 4 shoes in 4 days!!! Two of them are flats, and the worse thing is: I don't like to wear flats. Cause I have an exceptionally huge front (feet), so the sides of feet will become super painful in flats. After Karen incident from too small boots make me abit scare also. Plus the back of the shoes will cut into the back of my feet which will cause blisters. So usually it gets so painful that I will just step on the back of my shoes  and wear them like slippers and end up spoiling them.

The last time I wore flats was to Korea when we went to DMZ because I'm afraid to wear non-covered footwear there. I remember ending up having to buy a pair of slippers when we went shopping at night. Yesterday I wore the pink flats to Joy's and Gillian's commencement because I thought I wouldn't be walking much and I can expand the shoes at the same time. Haha ended up the blisters came super fast, before I reached SIM my feet had blisters at the back already. Then my front feet was hurting due to the bigger area. Walked quite abit also cause after that we went to vivo for dinner and walked around vivo too. Why don't they make flats with bigger front? Don't think I can't escape flats for ever, cause I think I'll need them for work next time since they look more formal.

 Still prefer wearing slippers and sandals. Or wedges too! Haha actually I'm fine with shoes that doesn't cover the front and back of my feet.

Was googling about flats and pumps, trying to see what's the correct name and their different. The design  I don't like is pumps -In their most basic form, pumps have closed backs, and low-cut fronts that hit closer to the toes than they do the top of the foot. - heels or no heels I don't like to wear them. Actually I don't like peep toe too cause they still cover my big wide feet front.

MPE

I just did my MPE.

PL4207- Social Psychology: Theories and Methods
PL4208- Introduction to Counselling Psychology
PL4218- Psychological Assessment
PL4219- Advanced Abnormal Psychology
PL4880F- Addictive Behaviours

I hope they will give me at least some modules. If not I think I'll die trying to bid for them.

Year 4 will be a stressful semester. I can feel it before it's here. The workload of year 4 modules seems like x2 that of level 3000 modules and I have no friends with me next sem.

Seriously feel like shit.

Joe's Coiffure & House of Seafood

Just came back from Eunice commencement at 5 plus, 5.30. Now I'm trying to blog and do my korean homework which was due on Monday and I totally forgot about it until yesterday.

Quite a few things to backtrack about cause I've been quite busy, so I should stay at home on thursday and friday and clear the backlog. Maybe.

Last Monday, met Muihong at Far East Plaza as we bought the outlet coupon for Joe's Coiffure. Muihong wanted to dye her hair and I wanted to do treatment for my cui hair. It was $35 for Hair Colour+wash+ blow or Japan Heat Hair Treatment+wash+blow or Haircut+wash+blow+hair treatment. I asked for the heat hair treatment, but I don't think she gave me that cause it was suppose to be 4 steps but they only applied the treatment cream and put the steamer and wash off. Honestly, I don't think the treatment did what it was suppose to do because even immediately after the hair treatment, I didn't feel that my hair become ultra smooth （feel normal to me or at most just abit smoother). I only felt that my hair smell very nice but it's because of the hair mist? she sprayed on my hair. The place was not that crowded when we went at about 3.15, but it got super crowded as the time went past. I saw some people having to leave or waited for more than an hour even though they had appointment. Plus, something they did shocked me. There was this girl who came in to apply for the hair stylist assistant and they asked if she was free right now to help them work. I mean like what??? she's not even trained and they don't even know how's her skills and all that and they asked her to work because they were short-handed. Bad!

Muihong's hair colour also came out too red at the top of her head and she went to buy hair dye after dying her hair and she went home to redye her hair. Her cutting skills was okay I guess, because Muihong said she was worried that she'll screw up her fringe but she didn't.

After that, we went for dinner at House of Seafood cause we had the outlet coupon which entitled us to a 900g crab for $25. The place is quite ulu, and we took bus 2 from Tanah Merah and alighted at Changi Baptist church then walk in. It's quite a long walk, but there's a huge signboard to tell you where to walk in and thanks to the power of google map. There's only 2 buses there, 2 and 29.

We had chilli crab, matou, sambal kangkong, thai style chicken cutlet and rice.

The sambal kangkong was not bad, quite nice even though it's not really spicy and there's no sight of the sambal chilli.

The thai style chicken cutlet looked nothing like what was shown in the menu. The menu shows red spicy looking chicken. The taste of it wasn't anything special and doesn't taste very nice either.

The chilli crab wasn't exceptionally nice but still good to me though. Good to mix the sauce with the rice. Yums! The mantous were expensive though. 80 cents for one, the most expensive mantou I have ever eaten. One of the mantou was overly fried and it was super hard. They're very nice too, they provided each person with their own bowl of water+lime for washing hands.

The whole meal was cheap though, paid $28.70 per person for the whole meal.

The walk out was scary, cause it's ulu and it was very dark except for the lighting at the side of the road. Plus, there were frogs croacking. Not one or two frogs, it totally sounded like a frog farm. I think unless you have car, it's not advisable to go there at night, unless in a big group.


I can't find my usb cable for mine phone so photos next time.

Ting Yuan Ma La Huo Guo

On thursday met Karen and we went for ma la huo guo at Ting Yuan at bugis.

麻辣（小辣）/药材鸡汤

Good buisness for 麻辣

Even though it's so spicy that it makes your nose run and sweat, you just can't stop. The ma la here is really very spicy, much much spicier than the previous one that me and Karen went to. Not to forget, we took out the chilli and chilli oil from the ma la soup base and it's still so spicy. It's really very shiok though, looking at the pictures make me want to eat them again. YUMS! Although the main lead is the ma la soup base, when it gets to spicy, like what karen said, the chicken soup base can 灭火. Can it's nice too, you imagine this tasty warm soup going down your throat, yummy! I think when they refill both the soup bases they use the same soup base. Then can add back the chilli and chilli oil when it gets less spicy. I didn't really like their fishballs though. Actually I think I'm not suited to eat this kind of steamboat buffet, cause I love eating noodles and those flour stuff like crabsticks. It's nice though! Paid $28 including a jug of lime juice to share (another fire extinguisher). Oh yeah before I forget, something happened there which made me feel very embarrassed. I dropped my straw on the floor and I needed to get another straw and when I asked for another straw, I forgot how do I say straw in chinese and I had to 'shout' and ask Karen what's straw in chinese. Now the person must be thinking my Chinese is so bad.

After that went to shop for dress at Bugis. Something happened there too. Karen wanted to make a call and I suggested the staircase exit (Sorry Karen!). And guess what happened? The door couldn't open after that!!! We were stuck in the scary errie place! We went up to the next level but the door couldn't open either. We tried calling Bugis Junction customer service counter but nobody answered our multiple calls, where were they???!!! Don't give me the bs telephone line of what their telephone operators were all engaged. Karen was even 'slamming' the door to get someone outside to notice us so they call open the door for us. The people out there either couldn't see us or they chose to ignore us, and I choose the latter cause it was actually quite loud. Then we ended up escaping through the door from the lower level. I think before that cause there was this green running man exit sign and a sprinkler at the exit, I said something like "what if it's emergency exit and when open the sprinkler will on" so we didn't try. That was a once in a life time experience.