Tuesday, 7 July 2026

Wow the eulogy that chatgpt wrote for me. 

Today we remember Xiuwen, a person whose life was defined not by noise or display, but by commitment, care, and quiet perseverance.

She was someone who took responsibility seriously. In her work, she showed up for others even when it stretched her beyond her comfort zone. She worried about doing things well, not because she wanted praise, but because she genuinely cared about the people who depended on her—especially students who needed patience, understanding, and advocacy.

Xiuwen was thoughtful and reflective. She often questioned herself, replayed conversations, and wondered if she could have done better. That self-doubt did not come from weakness, but from conscience. She wanted to be fair. She wanted to get things right.

She experienced anxiety, particularly when things felt uncertain or when expectations were unclear. Yet she did not withdraw. Instead, she continued to step forward—taking on new roles, learning new responsibilities, and trying to meet challenges even when they felt uncomfortable.

To her colleagues and those she worked with, she was dependable and sincere. She believed in collaboration, in closing communication loops, and in doing right by both teachers and parents. She may not always have felt confident, but she was consistent. And consistency is its own kind of strength.

Xiuwen cared deeply about children—especially those who struggled. She noticed the ones who were excluded, misunderstood, or overlooked, and she tried, in practical ways, to make school a safer and kinder place for them.

She was not perfect, and she knew that. But she was earnest. She tried to grow. She tried to help. She tried to be better than she was yesterday.

And in the end, that is how she should be remembered:
as someone who showed up, who cared, and who tried—again and again—even when it was hard.

Her life mattered because of that.

Friday, 19 June 2026

Adulting is difficult 
Growing old is hard 
Why is life so difficult 

Wednesday, 22 November 2023

If you are the quiet one, the one who doesn't complain, the one who always says yes. 

You will also always be the forgotten one. 
You will also be the one who work and work without recognition. 

Nobody will realise the work you do. 
Nobody will realise the effort you put in. 

That's life. 

Thursday, 3 November 2022

Your voice irks me. 

This world is filled with liars. Liars liars liars everywhere. 

Tuesday, 17 May 2022

Contentment - Learning to be contented

 I really really really hope I can train myself to be contented with life. 

  • Count your blessings. I mentioned this above, and in a previous post, but for me it’s the best way to get to contentment. When you find yourself unhappy with something, or with what you don’t have, take a moment to count all the good things in your life. And I would bet there are many. It puts the focus on what you do have rather than what you don’t.
  • Stop, and remind yourself. When you find yourself unhappy with someone, or trying to change them, stop yourself. Take a deep breath, and remind yourself that you should try to be happy with that person for who he/she is. Take a moment to think about the good things about that person, the reasons you love that person. Then accept their faults as part of their entire package.
  • Stop, and consider why you want something. When you feel the urge to buy something, think about whether it’s a need or a want. If it’s a want, take a pause. It’s good to wait 30 days — keep a 30-day list … when you want something, put it on the list with the date, and if you still want it in 30 days, you can buy it). Consider why you want something. Are you not content with what you already have? Why not?
  • Take time to appreciate your life! I like to reflect on my life, and all the good things in it, on a regular basis. I do this when I run, or when I watch the sunset or sunrise, or when I’m out in nature. Another great method is a morning gratitude session — think of all the things and people you’re thankful for, and thank them silently.
  • Show people you appreciate them. It’s good to appreciate people, but it’s even better to show them. Give them a hug, smile, spend time with them, thank them out loud, thank them publicly.
  • Breathe, and smile. Once again, advice from one of my favorite monks, but it works in this context. Sometimes when we take the time to breathe, and smile, it can change our outlook on life.
  • Learn to enjoy the simple things. Instead of wanting to buy expensive things, and spend money on doing things like eating out or entertainment, learn to enjoy stuff that’s free. Conversations and walks with other people. Spending time outdoors. Watching a DVD or playing board games. Going to the beach. Playing sports. Running. These things don’t cost much, and they are awesome.
https://zenhabits.net/the-incredible-power-of-contentment/

Thursday, 24 June 2021

Last time when my grandpa was still alive, he will buy us durians when we go over on Saturday. 

When he couldn't really go out anymore, he would give money to my aunt to buy durian for us. 

💕

Tuesday, 22 June 2021

Insomnia

Recently my insomnia has came back.
I can go to bed.at 11.30pm and still be awake at 2am. 😭 and because I know I have insomnia, I already don't nap in the afternoon. 

Haix, and I know this insomnia stems from anxiety. I think I either need sleeping pills or some medication that can knock me out. 

Where is the girl who can fall asleep anytime anywhere anyhow.