Holidays!!!

It's one week into my holidays now. I'm really enjoying rolling around in bed.

When my modules were ending, I was feeling abit sad because it means that I won't get to see some of the lecturers anymore, and next semester will be a very short semester. Haha, it's a conflicting feeling, because on one hand, I feel sad to see them go, but on the other hand, I can't wait for all the assignments to end and the holiday to come. I still have one more assignment to submit by 27th November and then I'll be free!

Wednesday went back to my pre-trainee school and it feels good to be back as a visitor, because everybody are working and I'm there as a visitor. But it is good to see all my ex-colleagues and some of my ex-students (not bad, they still can remember me). I think I am really attached to the team that I worked closely with, that is why when I left I cry until xi li hua la. I went back on a wednesday thinking that there will be prawn noodles, but horrors!!! No prawn noodles :'(, so I settled with gua tiao gan. Can't believe I actually spent 3.80 in the school canteen.

After that I went to cut and rebond my hair. Everytime I cut my hair, I think I will always regret. Rahh, now my hair is so short. So I have decided, in year 2016,  I will only trim my hair and not cut my hair. I kind of miss the long hair I had a few years ago, but recently I think I will cut a few inches off every year.

Like this length

 Haha, but karen was saying "shorter hair will look more lively and younger" then I told her “我走淑女路线！”

我的少女時代 Our Times

Just watched Our Times with Karen at Jem. It's so good that I'm blogging about it so immediately when I should be doing assignment :/ Haha, excuses for my procrastination.

Wanted to watch at Jurong Point at 6.50pm but on the way there, realised that there were only the first 3 rows left. Ended up watching at Jem at 8.30pm and got a seat at the 5th row.

I really love the movie. I think a good movie is one that can make me laugh and make me cry, and this movie fulfilled this. Haha but actually many other movies did that too. I think I didn't have very high expectations of the movie because it sounded like a typical throwback movie and isn't action packed like western movies. Although I did hear many good reviews about this movie. The plot of the movie was quite predictable but yet very enticing. I think it is typical yet at the same time teaches us alot.

The movie brought back alot of memories. It seems like our childhood times and those of Taiwan are the same; autograph books, idol cards, chain letters... It's amazing how the idols from our times like Jerry Yan and Chen Qiao En didn't grow old. The male lead looks like kunda to me.

I think the movie especially strikes us at this age because at this age we tend to be lost about who we are, are we still who we were from when we were young, after facing the harsh reality of life. Have we lost ourselves and our dreams in the midst of growing up?

當一個女孩說：
沒事，就是有事
沒关系，就是有关系

Thanks Karen for asking me to watch the movie! 

ISFJ PERSONALITY (“THE DEFENDER”)

Just did a personality test, although I am suppose to be doing assignment. Procrastination at work.

The ISFJ personality type is quite unique, as many of their qualities defy the definition of their individual traits. Though possessing the Feeling (F) trait, ISFJs have excellent analytical abilities; though Introverted (I), they have well-developed people skills and robust social relationships; and though they are a Judging (J) type, ISFJs are often receptive to change and new ideas. As with so many things, people with the ISFJ personality type are more than the sum of their parts, and it is the way they use these strengths that defines who they are.

ISFJs are true altruists, meeting kindness with kindness-in-excess and engaging the work and people they believe in with enthusiasm and generosity.

There's hardly a better type to make up such a large proportion of the population, nearly 13%. Combining the best of tradition and the desire to do good, ISFJs are found in lines of work with a sense of history behind them, such as medicine, academics and charitable social work.

ISFJ personalities (especially Turbulent ones) are often meticulous to the point of perfectionism, and though they procrastinate, they can always be relied on to get the job done on time. ISFJs take their responsibilities personally, consistently going above and beyond, doing everything they can to exceed expectations and delight others, at work and at home.

We Must Be Seen to Be Believed

The challenge for ISFJs is ensuring that what they do is noticed. They have a tendency to underplay their accomplishments, and while their kindness is often respected, more cynical and selfish people are likely to take advantage of ISFJs' dedication and humbleness by pushing work onto them and then taking the credit. ISFJs need to know when to say no and stand up for themselves if they are to maintain their confidence and enthusiasm.

Naturally social, an odd quality for Introverts, ISFJs utilize excellent memories not to retain data and trivia, but to remember people, and details about their lives. When it comes to gift-giving, ISFJs have no equal, using their imagination and natural sensitivity to express their generosity in ways that touch the hearts of their recipients. While this is certainly true of their coworkers, whom people with the ISFJ personality type often consider their personal friends, it is in family that their expressions of affection fully bloom.

If I Can Protect You, I Will

ISFJ personalities are a wonderful group, rarely sitting idle while a worthy cause remains unfinished. ISFJs' ability to connect with others on an intimate level is unrivaled among Introverts, and the joy they experience in using those connections to maintain a supportive, happy family is a gift for everyone involved. They may never be truly comfortable in the spotlight, and may feel guilty taking due credit for team efforts, but if they can ensure that their efforts are recognized, ISFJs are likely to feel a level of satisfaction in what they do that many other personality types can only dream of.

Highlighted in red are the parts I read and go hmm...really? 

www.16personalities.com, go try!!

Busy busy

Life recently has been busy busy busy, not really the bad kind of busy, but still really busy. Haha, so busy until I think I am not talking sense.

I think October I will be even busier because there will be a lot of assignments due in October, so good luck to me.

How has school life been? It has been quite good, I am quite happy. I am getting better at sharing in class and for presentation, my eye contact has been getting better but the tremors are still there. I think my background as a psychology student has gave me more confidence when it comes to sharing ideas. However, I think sometimes I tend to be very defensive over the things I say. I need to be more tame and open to what people say, cannot be too rigid in my thinking.

The lecturers of the course I am taking are all really nice. Haha, although I don't really show it, I really love all my lecturers/tutors. They are all very motherly/fatherly, understanding and have a great sense of humour. They are also very passionate about what they do and you can see it when they are giving their lectures. They are also very willing to listen to your questions and suggestions, to them it is really like there are no stupid questions or no stupid sharing, so you will feel quite comfortable sharing in class.

Hall life has been better than I expected. I thought I will lose a lot of weight, but no eh or at max lost 1kg. Indulging in lots of KFC and Subway and Macs. I was a little concerned with the shared toilet but for now it's still good because I haven't really have to fight over the toilet or shower with anyone. I really save a lot of time staying in school without having to travelling to school from home or from home to school. Didn't become best friends with my roomie but we do talk so it is okay. :)

I have a list of books that I want to read, maybe during the holidays.
1) The reason I jump
2) Saving Danny
3) Girl Alone
4) Some book with short stories about working with children with special needs

Looks like there is lots to do during the holidays!

Now, off to bath and back to work!

Small Steps Lead to Big Strides

Why does people ask me, or the people who are shy/introverted, "why you so quiet?", not like we will ask them, "why you so noisy?". Why does being quiet seem like a sin now. Usually I'm not really bothered because I am really very shy and not talking but I kind of got bothered by the statement yesterday because I think I've been trying to be more vocal but yet people are still passing this comment. I think if they see the past me, haha the now me won't be quiet anymore.

I think recently in school I have become braver. Maybe it is nothing to others but I think for me, seeing how I was in Uni, I think it's quite commendable. Minus the times when we were forced to talk, I have been trying to voluntarily talk more during class. I think I was quite amazed by myself on Monday during one of the class and we were supposed to share, then when my groupmate said she is not sure so not able to share, I voluntarily shared. Haha, but I think that was the only time. Next week I will try harder. :/ Along the way I tried to raise my hands and answer questions too. I think some lecturers I dare to do it more but some I still don't really dare yet. My thinking process is damn funny, I will be thinking in my head "Okay if nobody raise hand then I will raise hand." Then maybe the thought will repeat for 3-5 times before I finally raise my hand or sometimes I raise my hand so short nobody can see. During group discussions, I have been sharing more unless the question I really don't know how to answer, because my processing time is slower so I really need more time to think.

Maybe it is nothing to any other student but I think for me, this small step can be something that I can be proud of and commend myself for.

Actually I have been thinking why I am able to be more vocal now. I am not sure if my previous school has made me more vocal, or sometimes the content I am more comfortable with it, or the people here are generally nice so I feel more comfortable to share?

When I'm scare, one thing I will do is avoid eye contact. Then kenna shoot, autistic.

I am trying but give me time.

Mixture

Last day of school today. This day came quickly and I didn't expect parting to be so difficult. All is good though, I am sure I will go back to visit. 11 months, shuo chang bu chang, shuo duan bu duan.

I remember my first day of school, we had to report at 1.30pm to our mentor and days before I went to the school website to check out who is my mentor and I remember I texted Cheryl saying "omg, my mentor looks quite fierce." Haha, who knew that she herself is special needs. Haha, kidding.

Due to my nature, it is not easy for me to bond with anybody and everybody but it is amazing how I am able to get along with the care team of this school.

Apart from my colleagues, I will miss the students too. Children are really the most innocent people, that is why working with them can be very enjoyable. Although sometimes they frustrate you and test your patience, at the end of the day, you still love working with them. Some are the kids are really so sweet when I tell them I'm leaving. They make leaving so hard too.

Moved my things to my hostel with the help of my brother on Saturday. He keep saying that my school and hostel is damn lao ko. Bought my laptop on Saturday too, Lenovo Yoga 3-14, I got the intel-core i7 because it was the same price as intel-core i5 due to national day sales. Hopefully digitex next week don't have good deals for this or else I will feel damn sad, haha but shall not itchy fingers and go research. I saw the previous it fair brouchures like not much discount for lenovo. I heard they can have very good deals too because Cheryl told me she bought her laptop last year? during it fair and got 300 dollars capitaland vouchers.

I think starting school is damn expensive,  need to get a new laptop, if not for school I can survive with my old laptop since it is only the battery life that cmi. Plus staying in hostel makes it even more expensive, need to buy so many things.

Kettle: $20 + $49.90 (I bought one and my father apparently bought one too...on the same day)
Hostel: $235 per month
Hair Dryer: $49.90 (Actually I don't need and I totld my father I don't need, but he still bought)
Pillow: $18
Bedsheet: $12
Laptop: $1499
Application Charge for hostel: $16
Alarm Clock: ???
Towel: $12
Toiletries to bring to hostel: ???

and the list continues ... Haha that is why I say I have financial stress. Good thing is, I can still afford it. I really don't know how people can buy a flat, buy car, take care of their children/parents etc etc. Really admire them.

Suddenly Singapore 50th Birthday and the Jubilee Weekend is coming to an end. We were so hype up for it and suddenly when it is over, feels so weird.

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY AND MAY YOU CONTINUE TO PROSPER AND GROW!!! THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A PLACE I CALL HOME.

Financial Stress

Recently I think I'm feeling financially stress because school is starting.

With the start of school, I have to get a new laptop because my currently laptop only have a battery of life 15 mins?, and every month there is that extra few hundred I have to pay for hostel too. Then if I'm staying hostel, I won't have free dinner from home too. That will be extra burden to my pocket too.