Financial Stress

Recently I think I'm feeling financially stress because school is starting.

With the start of school, I have to get a new laptop because my currently laptop only have a battery of life 15 mins?, and every month there is that extra few hundred I have to pay for hostel too. Then if I'm staying hostel, I won't have free dinner from home too. That will be extra burden to my pocket too.

Hall

Today I got abit upset, maybe abit more upset, because I got notified that my hall will be a double room and there won't be air-con either. Totally opposite of what I chose. Boohoo.

I'm okay with no air-con, I chose air-con because online mentioned that those air-con halls are the newer ones built for YOG so they will have better amenities. But why they didn't give me a single room :'(. My personality is super anti-social so I'm super concerned about living in the same room as a stranger. I think it will be very awkward. The only time I stayed with in a hostel with someone else, was in Korea, and that was with a friend from Secondary school, but now staying with a total stranger will be testing my limits. Plus with someone else in the room, there will be a super lack of privacy. Haha, cannot change clothes in the room and more or less will have to worry about the belongings inside too I think.

Another thing I'm concern about is common toilet. That will be super troublesome, even when going overseas for a few days, I would mostly only stay in places with private toilet. I think I will become constipated from staying in the hostel.

Nonetheless, I shall not worry too much now and try out hostel with an open mind. Anyway I'm considered lucky because I have a home that welcomes me back (I assume), so there is somewhere I can go if I really find hostel unsuitable. Anyway I believe strongly in fate, or that everything happens for a reason. So I guess fate wants me to stay in hall for a reason, maybe I'll make more friends!!!

The 'Big Day'

Signed myself to my boss today. My youth.

Hope things will continue to go well and I continue to be happy!

Who Are You

Just finished watching Who Are You: School 2015. The drama is not bad, has romance and mystery and a little bit of humour. It depicts some of the problems students faced in school such as bullying, academic stress from parents and friendship. Thanks Karen for the recommendation!

Once of the most played song in Who Are You, very catchy song but the lyrics of the song is so sad but sometimes yet so true. 

 

There’s an empty world deep in my heart, save me
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset
Lonely eyes trapped in darkness
Is there anyone to hold my hand?
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

Someone somewhere will know my miserable heart
It’s right in front of me but I can’t find it like a oriole bird
I’m flying around by myself in this darkness, in my lonely night
I’m flying around by myself in this darkness, with a miserable heart
Why don’t you know? Even if I’m a small existence
Don’t trample on me but go with me
Your careless words and actions break me down
It corners me, though you deny it
I’m hiding behind the ridicule, don’t look for me

There’s an empty world deep in my heart, save me
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset
Lonely eyes trapped in darkness
Is there anyone to hold my hand?
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

It’s just a passing wind
I try shouting at the person next to me
But only silence is looking at me
I am walking too but why are they getting farther apart?
Why am I standing here alone?
Why is only my world stopping?
I see them fading away farther and farther
I don’t care if it’s just one person, please look back, please hold my hand
I don’t care if it’s just one time, please hold my hand
Someone please stop for a moment

There’s an empty world deep in my heart, save me
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset
Lonely eyes trapped in darkness
Is there anyone to hold my hand?
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

Your smile that’s not ridiculing me
Finds me again from disappearing
In the darkness, your smile
Shines brightly into my heart
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset
Your smile that’s not ridiculing me
Finds me again from disappearing
In the darkness, your smile
Shines brightly into my heart
I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

How about you
I`m all about you
I wanna go back to the beautiful days
reset

I’m left alone like this, loneliness
Please hold my hand right now
I wanna reset
I wanna reset
I wanna reset
The truth is hidden by scars
I wanna go back to the happy place
I wanna reset
I wanna reset
I wanna reset

Lyrics from here. 

3 Things I'm Grateful for Everyday

22th June
1) My room is on the road to being packed. Just need to vacumn and mop, plus get the small shelves for my table. 

2) I have aircon which I can use anytime I'm feeling warm.

3) Today while packing I saw writings on one of my chinese worksheet in JC and I realized I must be really very sad during that period. I survived that period!

23rd June
1) Met Qiyin for lunch, it has been a few months since I last met her.

2) Collected my reserved book from the library. Borrowing books mean money saved.

3) Bought my shelves for my table from Daiso. 

24th June
1) Watch Jurassic World today with Karen. It's quite a cool movie, if only there's a real Jurassic World.

2) Cut away 三寸烦恼丝 and rebonded my fringe。Isn't it a luxury we can enjoy cutting hair and doing all sorts of things to our hair in a comfortable and air-conditioned place.

3) My father has recovered from his fever yesterday. :)

25th June
1) Exercise about half hour today.

2) Promise myself that I will sleep by 11.30pm.

3) I ate so much noodles in the past few days that I actually had craving for rice during lunch today. Lucky me got to eat so much noodles!   

26th June
1) satisfied my hot cakes craving!! 

2) become hardworking today and studied almost two hours of 한국어.  

3) my father have very much recovered from his cough and runny nose.  

27th June 

1) Went to the doctor at 11.45am, was worried that the clinic will be closed because online stated that it close at 12pm but luckily it closes at 12.30pm and it was still open so I can get my medicine. 

2) My phone dropped from damn high and survived in one piece.  I also never use brain lah when I charge my phone, next time cannot already.

3)  Got my snaffles. Yummylicious

28th June
1) I got the DISE programme email (it was sent out last monday but just opened my email).Don't know if this is good news or sad news because it means the end is here but still grateful.

2)  Got to eat yummy durian.

3) It's back to work tomorrow. *Positive thinking*

Time

Met Karen to watch Jurassic World yesterday and while we were having dinner at pepperlunch, we were talking about how kids grow up very quickly and suddenly it became...

"小孩子一天天的长大，我们一天天的变老。"

It's scary how time flies. Sometimes, I feel so confused. When I'm looking forward to something I want time to pass faster but yet at the same time, I don't want time to pass so quickly because I don't want to grow old and it is scary to see how quickly time passes.

The 3 weeks of holiday just flew pass like that, it will be back to waking up at 6am next week. I have been sleeping only after 1am this few days. I promise myself from today onwards I will be in bed latest by 11.30pm. Until when? Haha, that I don't know.  

3 Things I'm Grateful for Everyday

15th June
1) I got to eat my grandma's dumpling for lunch.

2) I spent a hard time trying to remove the foam tape on my table and my father helped me remove the rest on the table when he came back.

3) My father wore the shirt I bought him from SEA Games to work even though he kept saying people will laugh at him because the shirt is for young people. Lol. 

16th June
1) Went to adventure cove and dinner with Cmt team and jennifer. Came back with aching back, stomach,  arms and legs. And a swimming head too.  Grateful to have such good colleagues. 

2) Da yi ma didnt come, if not cannot go adventure cove. 

3) I snorkeled and came out alive and in one piece. 

17th June
1) Bonus next month $$$

2) I am loved by kids

3) Today i was of help when i went to babysit my nephew because he was sick.

18th June

1) My father bought lunch for me and my brother before I went over to my brother's house to babysit.

2) Finally got less lazy and placed the plastic sheet over my table. 

3) All is good!

19th June
 1) My father bought breakfast over to my brother's house before babysitting. (although I really wanted to have macdonald's hot cakes)

2) My brother bought lunch back when he came back to fetch my sis-in-law to work.

3) My nephew is very easily satisfied. 

有没有很motherly?

20th June

1) My father bought me my favourite sandwich in the morning.  

2) I got 2 numbers (500 coins w a break tsum tsum and 130 combo) on the bingo card for tsum tsum game. It has been a long time since i have gotten any.  

3) free pudding from gongcha

21st June
1) I got to eat one of my favourite chicken wings dish for lunch.

2) I got to eat crab for dinner.

3)  I started cleaning my room. Better get it done by tomorrow.