A visit to the doctor

So today I went to the doctor because of a lump on my arm for 2 weeks already. Usually I wouldn't bother and let it heal on its own, then my colleagues kept saying that need to see a doctor. 

When I woke up today, actually it felt better like smaller and less painful but people still encouraged me to go to the doctor just in case.

Doctor: good morning. Its still morning right, looks at watch. Yes its still 11, but left with one more minute. 

Me: Actually its getting better already.

Doctor: why you come when its getting better not earlier. 

Me: cause my colleagues asked me to come. 

Which brings us to another topic 

Doctor: Actually im more concern with you taking the vaccine. 

Me: *Give awkward laugh* 

Doctor: are you the kind who is scare of needles. 

Me: Yes!

Doctor: What if I jab not painful? 

Me: But you jab is painful 😂

Hahaha at the moment, I think I hurt his feelings. 

Anyway I lost weight, I think I'm at the lightest I have been for 10 years. Actually I don't know cause I hardly weigh myself at home until I started visiting this doctor. So he always ask me to lose weight. And now I lost weight he never praise me, I xiao sad. From the last time I saw him, I lost 3kg and from the heaviest I have ever been weighed at the clinic, I lost 6kg. Hahaha I think partly because yesterday I didn't eat lunch then this morning didn't eat breakfast. I lost weight very unhealthily though, by skipping most of my lunch at work. I eat lunch almost once every 2-3 weeks nowadays at work. The last time I ate lunch in school was 28th Sep. I hope my weight can go down by another 5kg then I think I will be at the perfect weight. 

I hope I follow and put my antibiotics cream, cause I'm so lazy. 

Aging

Turning 30 today. Is damm scary when you hit the big 3 because it's like really no longer young. 

When I was in my twenties, 30 seems so far away and in a blink of eye, it is here. Today I saw a video, 

At 30, 

When you die, people will say you die too young. 

When you are alive, peoplr will say yoi sre no longer young. 

And doesnt help that Im afraid of growing old and growing fat. Sadly, these two are linked. When you grow old, your metabolism will drop. Today my brother eZ saying, do you know that at 30, your metabolism start to drop to half. 

At 30, 

I wish I can win my 7million toto soon 😂

Have good health and happiness 

And for everyone around me to stay healthy and happy too. 

Thursday is the start of PSLE, wishing them all the best! 🤞

Tomorrow is never guranteed

Yesterday was the last day of xiao gui wake. 

16 September I was at work and my friend sent me an article that xiao gui has passed away. I was so shock and thought that it was fake news, but after googling, there were so many articles about it. My heart broke a little. I went to his instagram and he posted on his story just 23 hours ago. 

He was part of my of my teenage years. I think the time I became more familiar with them was when he started hosting on yu le bai fen bai. Everytime at 5pm? I will be in front of my tv watching channel u. I used to blog alot and it's really great for me to look back on. His concert, his drama. Looking back Im about to realised his concert was so long ago in 2012, and how I thought he has worked hard and his concert was great even though I dont know most of the songs. 

He is at the peak of his life, gaining more popularity as he host Mr Player, and his life just ended like this. Just a tear in the artery and the life is gone. I cannot imagine if there is a spirit/soul, when he looks at his body, what will he be thinking. 

Looking at what his fans and other artists are posting about him, he must have been a really great guy. He has fulfilled alot during his life time. They say good people die young because they have achieved enough in their life or because they should not suffer in this terrible world. 

Life is really unpredictable. Xiao gui exercises to keep fit, abstain from sweet stuff and have been going for yearly healthcheck after he found out he has hereditary kidney issue and the three highs. 

Nobody's tomorrow is guranteed. 

I wonder I can't/don't sleep

Is it because I am not tired or is it because Im so afraid that work is going to start? 

生命

You know, they said that horse has the worst luck this year. I think is true. 

First, **** colleague at work. It's the first time I met such a person.  

Then, the covid virus and CB. 

Then, my dog fell sick. It started last week where he had an eye bump and cause of CB, vet asked me to observe first. On Monday, suddenly I saw him bleeding very badly (apparently he has abscess) and he was also limping, so I called the vet and managed to make an appointment. Thursday brought him for wound cleaning. His leg seems to be better but his eyes seems to have gotten worse...wound Im not so sure. I really panic when I saw him bleeding, I really wonder how am I going to cope when he pass on. I will probably  疯掉。

Then today, my grandpa passed away. Got news in the morning he was in critical condition as his BP was very low and in the evening he was gone. We didnt get to see him because of CB. And I am very upset with St Andrew Community Hospital because in the morning they told my uncle all of us can go but 2 at time go up. One hour later when some of us were otw they said miscommunication is only the 4 people registered with them during the CB who can go. What kind of miscommunication is this?! 

With everything going on, it really makes me think what for work so hard, what for save money (some save for their children but I dont have), we dont even know when we will die. 

With all this shit going on, I hope things will get better...

Partial Lockdown?

Didnt expect Singapore to go into "partial lockdown" so quickly. I didnt expect this day to come so quickly, although many other countries are doing it. Hearing alot of information from difference sources and PM Lee speaking at 4pm set people off in panic buying. I was at work when listening to PM Lee on FB live. 

From next tuesday onwards, all non-essential work places to close and no more eating at food places. Only delivery of dabao. 

From next wednesday onwards, all schools will be doing HBL. 

As much as possible, avoid going out and also socialising, unless for essentials. 

I think I will really grow fat this one month because I walk quite a lot at work and I have been skipping lunch at work-some weeks eat no lunch some weeks eating once. At home, sure cannot skip meals. 

Nonetheless, Singapore had overcame SARS and Im sure we can overcome this Covid-19 too. 

#stayhomestaysafe

累了

心很累。

I am so tired I really feel like I'm going to break. 

Have been in office 11 hours everyday for a few weeks except the time happy had to basic groom and I brought my laptop home to work after and skipping my lunch. My lunch has been replaced with chocolates and milo. Even weekends I was on-ing my laptop.

我是真的真的很累. I feel like I am going to collapse. I just need to endure and hopefully things will get better.