Last time when my grandpa was still alive, he will buy us durians when we go over on Saturday. 

When he couldn't really go out anymore, he would give money to my aunt to buy durian for us. 

💕

Insomnia

Recently my insomnia has came back.

I can go to bed.at 11.30pm and still be awake at 2am. 😭 and because I know I have insomnia, I already don't nap in the afternoon. 

Haix, and I know this insomnia stems from anxiety. I think I either need sleeping pills or some medication that can knock me out. 

Where is the girl who can fall asleep anytime anywhere anyhow. 

The life of a hoarder

This week, I'm trying to pack my room. 

On Monday, I threw away 2 boxes of nail polishes. I think there were at least 20 bottles? Some from an auntie (all OPI/ORLY) and some from Korea. When I went to Korea long time ago, I bought nail polishes like they were free, and then ended up giving alot of them to my cousin.  

On Wednesday, I tried to pack my wardrobe. I managed to pack one big bag of clothes to donate and some to throw. However, my wardrobe is still bursting. It's really so hard to donate/throw clothes, because I will be thinking what if I can wear them next time? And I realised I buy clothes that I don't wear/can't wear because they are cheap, thinking that I can wear them next time/I will lose weight. And I like to buy clothes and don't wear them, feeling good that I have alot of new clothes. Then I realised that I like to keep the packaging like the boxes or plastic of the things I bought. So I threw them away too. 

Today, I tried to pack my brother's room which have became my storeroom, but it's really so hard. No matter how I throw, the things doesn't seem to lessen. I really like to collect boxes, especially those beautiful boxes. When I go overseas, then I like to buy those biscuits and keep the boxes as momentos but they take up so much space. 

Why am I a hoarder? 

- I have difficulty throwing away things and have the mentality of what if I need to use them next time. 

- I keep even the packaging of the things. 

Not only am I a hoarder, I am also a shopperholic. I like to buy things when it's cheap or when there's a sale. When companies come out with a collection, like kit kat, I want to collect all the boxes. Then every few months, I will be addicted to something. For example, there was a period I was addicted to scrapbooking...then last I was addicted to crystals...then I will buy alot of things for my addiction. Not to mention buying things for my dog and the kiddos. I think if I'm not a shopperholic, I probably would have saved alot of money too. 

 

Toto...I'm still waiting for you.