生命

You know, they said that horse has the worst luck this year. I think is true. 

First, **** colleague at work. It's the first time I met such a person.  

Then, the covid virus and CB. 

Then, my dog fell sick. It started last week where he had an eye bump and cause of CB, vet asked me to observe first. On Monday, suddenly I saw him bleeding very badly (apparently he has abscess) and he was also limping, so I called the vet and managed to make an appointment. Thursday brought him for wound cleaning. His leg seems to be better but his eyes seems to have gotten worse...wound Im not so sure. I really panic when I saw him bleeding, I really wonder how am I going to cope when he pass on. I will probably  疯掉。

Then today, my grandpa passed away. Got news in the morning he was in critical condition as his BP was very low and in the evening he was gone. We didnt get to see him because of CB. And I am very upset with St Andrew Community Hospital because in the morning they told my uncle all of us can go but 2 at time go up. One hour later when some of us were otw they said miscommunication is only the 4 people registered with them during the CB who can go. What kind of miscommunication is this?! 

With everything going on, it really makes me think what for work so hard, what for save money (some save for their children but I dont have), we dont even know when we will die. 

With all this shit going on, I hope things will get better...

Partial Lockdown?

Didnt expect Singapore to go into "partial lockdown" so quickly. I didnt expect this day to come so quickly, although many other countries are doing it. Hearing alot of information from difference sources and PM Lee speaking at 4pm set people off in panic buying. I was at work when listening to PM Lee on FB live. 

From next tuesday onwards, all non-essential work places to close and no more eating at food places. Only delivery of dabao. 

From next wednesday onwards, all schools will be doing HBL. 

As much as possible, avoid going out and also socialising, unless for essentials. 

I think I will really grow fat this one month because I walk quite a lot at work and I have been skipping lunch at work-some weeks eat no lunch some weeks eating once. At home, sure cannot skip meals. 

Nonetheless, Singapore had overcame SARS and Im sure we can overcome this Covid-19 too. 

#stayhomestaysafe

累了

心很累。

I am so tired I really feel like I'm going to break. 

Have been in office 11 hours everyday for a few weeks except the time happy had to basic groom and I brought my laptop home to work after and skipping my lunch. My lunch has been replaced with chocolates and milo. Even weekends I was on-ing my laptop.

我是真的真的很累. I feel like I am going to collapse. I just need to endure and hopefully things will get better. 

What children say

It has been a long time since I did this.

Me: shows a photo of my nephew and nice - now I not only have to spend money on my dog, I have to spend money on my nephew and niece
Girl: You also need to spend money on us
Me: 🤣so true.

This is really where all my pay goes.

Me: You all are making me very angry
Boy: Drink water. Dont let your heartbeat go too fast.

Boy: Why you dont want to be OL.
Me: I can consider
Boy: I dont think you can. You are not young anymore
Me: 😤

Girl: Sees my dob. How old are you?
Me: You can go and calculate.
Girl: 18?
Me: Yes, im 18.
Girl: So young? You shouldn't be in school.

Just because you complain a lot or you all share the same complain means that you have the worse.

Just because people dont complain (to you) doesn't mean they have it easier.

😑

Today I was so angry and so upset with the students.

But at the peak of my emotions, I just realised that there is really so much you can do. If they dont want to do, I cannot force them. And at the end of the day, they are the ones who will be living with it, so no point I get so worked up and upset over it. What for make my mental health and physical health suffer because of them.

They dont realised how privilege they can be and like they say
You can lead the horse to water but you can't make them drink.

I just want to stay in bed and hug my dog. Ignore the harsh realities of life.